mom , youre my guardian angel , .. :))

some day i ever think about my mom,..

actually, she is not beautiful, she's fat,

but if i look her face depeer , i look a shine, with her smile and her laugh,. ..

she pregnant during 9 month, and conseting birthing me, with cesar opration.

she is to suckling , and care with me  then enhance be i'ma person.

she has a good motherhood .,   

more than  all ocean tears which had she take out.

but, other inside she so annoying, ..

she always to defend  her  last son. often, he makes mistake, and trouble ..but she always blinding her eyes .

uh, hu... this is so ANNOYING!!

she doesn't wise, ..

and now, i school in smk , VOCATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL! -,-

 i don't like vocational high school, but she ask me to in to that !!!

okay, i think it will be okey,.. but,..

so far, i feel,. .. I FEEL IT'S MAKE ME STUCK! I DON'T LIKE VACATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL.. I SCREAM IN MY HEARD UNTIL MY MIND WANNA SHATTER!

i wanna be  ordinary girls, mom ! i wanna be my self with my study, my education and my talent !

its very very FVCK, FVCK LIFE !!!

i feel its not fair for me!

ITS NOT FAIR!

altough i have many friend, but i feel there a lost ! something!

nothing AWESOME IN HERE ! WHO AM I? WHAT MY DESTINATION, AND WHERE I CAN GET HAPPY LIFE?what my dream ,.

i often make my environment happy and LOL .

i  always smile and LOL in front of,. . but, do you know what , dude ??

i fell  my life full with sorrow!

everything walk in my life, ..

 and right now, i dont know what my dream.. .

DESIGNER GRAFIS? DOCTER? FASHION DESIGNER ? LECTURER?

OR A LOSTER?

i have a dream i'll lecturing my study  KOREA, but my mom wanna i  have class in BANDUNG same with my sista !

oh, mom ,..

let me to choose my best  decision . ..

mama, hear me, please. ..

and when you sleep with soundly asleep, i look your face. i touch your nose and feel, WITH YOUR BREATH I CAN LIFE MOM. YOU STRUGGLE RESIST A DEATH, WHEN I BORN IN THERE. MAMA, YOU ARE MY GUARDIAN ANGEL, YOU PROTECT ME FROM OTHER WORLD, .. WITH YOUR BREATH I CAN STAND UP IN HERE.. I CAN REACH MY DREAM, YOU ALWAYS  INSIDE ME ..

MAMA. .. SORRY IF I HAVE O LOT OF MISTAKE ! MAMA, DON'T LET ME CHOOSE MY CHOOSEN ALONE, BECAUSE I KNOW, YOU WILL GIVE ME WHAT THE BEST THING FOR ME! :* LOVE YOU MOM !

As child , i  have occupations, dreams and ambitions !

From innocent child to young woman; through middle age and then beyond, i work hard and try to make my mark on the world .

A best mama  shares the love that she has in her heart, generously gives of herself and enriches those around her. A best mama embraces her own greatness, leads by example and makes a difference in the lives of others. My mother-in-law was both.

i think its gonna be okay, if  to continue mylife with seriously !

THANK YOU MOM ! :*